Saturday, August 15, 2009!
HandWritten on; 2:20 PM
my first week of university was a mixture of anticipation, confusion, climbing up and down stairs and through long corridors to get to LT32, printing and photocopying notes, meeting kiasu people plus mind boggling lectures. in short, lectures are scaring me so much i've been stressed up the past few days thinking why why why on earth am i even on this very path. i suppose i will never have the guts to try getting out of it so i'm currently trying to psycho myself to work hard and hopefully things will take a change for the better. thats all academics wise btw. besides that, i miss my cac og people the 7 of us who sort of became a clique after these few weeks :) even though we meet rather often but we see one another so often that if i dont see them for one single day i'll feel weird and zone out. it seems like nowadays i only feel like myself when i'm around them. was just talking to jasmine the other day, we were saying its all because of cac camp thats why now we dont exactly feel like we fit in at our own respective faculties with our own faculty-mates. so perhaps meeting the cac people was a bad thing altogether, if not for them we would probably feel more enthusiastic about our own faculty and the people in it. however, nearing the end of the conversation both of us agreed that we feel that meeting the group of them is totally worth the sacrifice. i'd rather meet them and know them and feel like i dont really fit into pharmacy, THAN to have a deep sense of belonging to pharmacy and never met the group of them before. always and forever, we'll choose the former. jasmine's photo album on fb with photos of us, titled "Peeps tt I love and wanna rmb =))" makes me so sadd when i first saw it, it's as if we wont really see one another again, thus the need to remember. sigh. i wish we'll always stay in contact even though its really frigging hard, and meet up whenever we can and still be able to stay comfortable with one another and without any intention to stay late, sit and talk to one another about utterly random stuff until 3am in the morning (: